Summer is officially here. I work at subway. I will barely be able to pay for rent, let alone school. My roommates are fun, but I'm secretly having a hard time adjusting. I became a little more attached my old roommates than I would have liked.
Mandy stopped by today to pick up her stuff finally, and to casually mention that she was moving to Missouri. She might have been sad to say goodbye, but I could tell she is happy. She's happily married and willing to go wherever her husband goes.
Well, after all is said and done, all of us roommates from Continental are going our seperate ways. That makes me sad, and a little frustrated, which is weird since I'm usually the one who can't wait to get away.
Anyway. This summer will be fun, but I still have this nagging feeling of discontent at the back of my mind. I've been carrying it with me ever since I can remember. Nothing feels right, really. Like I'm not doing the right things, or focusing on the right things. or something. I don't know. I don't know what I want.
It's not that I'm complaining about my life, or that I'm trying to sound ungrateful. Believe me, I know I am one blessed kid. And I want to look for things to be happy about. But...there's something there. Something that needs to happen. Something I have to do.
I guess that doesn't make any sense.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Friday, December 19, 2008
A Not So Relaxing Break
This week has been the type of vacation that I need a vacation from. Pretty much, it's stressed me out more than finals week.
Let's see...no car, no phone, almost no computer...anything else I can lose that will isolate me from the rest of the world? Well, apparently I'm workin on it.
Tonight is one of those nights. I want to cry and scream and laugh all at the same time.
Well, looks like I just lost one of my cds too. I'm listening to music right now, and my cd just started skipping like crazy. And of course, it's one of my favorites. Normally, I would be very annoyed and I might have even yelled at the stupid thing. But instead, I'm laughing. I'm alone in my apartment and I'm just sitting on the couch, laughing. You know what? Bring it on.
Bring it on, world. I can take it. Take me to hell in a handbasket. There are still worse things that could happen.
Oh, and by the way roommates, if any of you are reading this, Melissa and Jill's bathroom lights are burned out, all of the lights except one are burned out in my room, and I'm pretty sure there are some other ones that have burned out, too. Oh, and the sink that me and the Megans share was leaking earlier this week. Ha. Hahaha. My life is soooooo great!!!
You know what though? I'm still looking at this with a positive attitude. It's been a pretty good learning experience for me. I've learned that life is like dominoes. If one things falls, it doesn't stop there. There's a whole chain reaction of things falling over. Life goes great for a while, then bam, several million things hit you all at once. Whoohoo! That's why I say, bring it on, world. I'm going to hell in a handbasket. And I'm going to enjoy the ride.
Let's see...no car, no phone, almost no computer...anything else I can lose that will isolate me from the rest of the world? Well, apparently I'm workin on it.
Tonight is one of those nights. I want to cry and scream and laugh all at the same time.
Well, looks like I just lost one of my cds too. I'm listening to music right now, and my cd just started skipping like crazy. And of course, it's one of my favorites. Normally, I would be very annoyed and I might have even yelled at the stupid thing. But instead, I'm laughing. I'm alone in my apartment and I'm just sitting on the couch, laughing. You know what? Bring it on.
Bring it on, world. I can take it. Take me to hell in a handbasket. There are still worse things that could happen.
Oh, and by the way roommates, if any of you are reading this, Melissa and Jill's bathroom lights are burned out, all of the lights except one are burned out in my room, and I'm pretty sure there are some other ones that have burned out, too. Oh, and the sink that me and the Megans share was leaking earlier this week. Ha. Hahaha. My life is soooooo great!!!
You know what though? I'm still looking at this with a positive attitude. It's been a pretty good learning experience for me. I've learned that life is like dominoes. If one things falls, it doesn't stop there. There's a whole chain reaction of things falling over. Life goes great for a while, then bam, several million things hit you all at once. Whoohoo! That's why I say, bring it on, world. I'm going to hell in a handbasket. And I'm going to enjoy the ride.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
So I created this blog thing for my math class. That's right, my math class. Except I only used it once and probably didn't get the points anyway. But hey, I figure it's always good to have a place where you can put your thoughts.
I've realized that I'm the type of person who needs a place to put their thoughts or they can't function very well. For example, I have a hard time falling asleep at night, and more often than not I'll wake up several times during the night. Some of the problem is all the stuff I need to think about or should be thinking about doesn't come to me untill I'm laying in bed at midnight or 1 in the morning. Then I had the idea of writing in my journal before I fall asleep, because that's when all the crap falls out of my brain and onto paper the easiest. Ok, I lied about the first part. I got the idea from my roommate, Melissa. Brilliant girl.
Anyway...it's a good thing my room roomate is a deep sleeper, because if she was at all like me, she would be wanting to strangle me.
The week before finals and the week of finals didn't go so well for me and my body. I don't react well to lots of stress sometimes. Depending on the type of stress. I think if I were put in a situation where I had to take care of someone or I were in charge of something, I would be alright. But when it comes to tests...ugh.
So, on top of not being able to sleep for the past two weeks, I had no appetite, and I broke out. But don't worry, for what I didn't eat last week, I made up for this weekend. Holy crap. It's a good thing I like to exercise.
So I went home on friday, suddenly all of the sleep deprivation and stress I'd been under all month hit me like a brick wall. Needless to say, I must have looked like the undead when I walked in the door. My mom, who is now the Young Women president, was in the middle of a meeting. No wonder all of her counselors looked a little nervous when they saw me. They probably thought I was on the verge of death. After the meeting, my mother dragged me upstairs and basically forced me to take a nap on her bed. I didn't need much convincing, but for some reason I wouldn't lie down and sleep until she made me.
So, now, I'm recovering from the traumatizing experience of college finals, although I probably over-dramatized it, as usual. This makes me laugh because if I was freaking out about it this semester, it'll be fun to see what happens next semester. Next semester is going to be interesting. I guess we'll see if I have what it takes to become a physical therapist.
I've realized that I'm the type of person who needs a place to put their thoughts or they can't function very well. For example, I have a hard time falling asleep at night, and more often than not I'll wake up several times during the night. Some of the problem is all the stuff I need to think about or should be thinking about doesn't come to me untill I'm laying in bed at midnight or 1 in the morning. Then I had the idea of writing in my journal before I fall asleep, because that's when all the crap falls out of my brain and onto paper the easiest. Ok, I lied about the first part. I got the idea from my roommate, Melissa. Brilliant girl.
Anyway...it's a good thing my room roomate is a deep sleeper, because if she was at all like me, she would be wanting to strangle me.
The week before finals and the week of finals didn't go so well for me and my body. I don't react well to lots of stress sometimes. Depending on the type of stress. I think if I were put in a situation where I had to take care of someone or I were in charge of something, I would be alright. But when it comes to tests...ugh.
So, on top of not being able to sleep for the past two weeks, I had no appetite, and I broke out. But don't worry, for what I didn't eat last week, I made up for this weekend. Holy crap. It's a good thing I like to exercise.
So I went home on friday, suddenly all of the sleep deprivation and stress I'd been under all month hit me like a brick wall. Needless to say, I must have looked like the undead when I walked in the door. My mom, who is now the Young Women president, was in the middle of a meeting. No wonder all of her counselors looked a little nervous when they saw me. They probably thought I was on the verge of death. After the meeting, my mother dragged me upstairs and basically forced me to take a nap on her bed. I didn't need much convincing, but for some reason I wouldn't lie down and sleep until she made me.
So, now, I'm recovering from the traumatizing experience of college finals, although I probably over-dramatized it, as usual. This makes me laugh because if I was freaking out about it this semester, it'll be fun to see what happens next semester. Next semester is going to be interesting. I guess we'll see if I have what it takes to become a physical therapist.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
Math 1050 - blog assignment
The graph of f(x) = ax is a horizontal asymptote is positive, and passes through the point (0,1).
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
Why I Love Yogurt
So I just bought one of those big containers of yogurt today and it made me so happy! I love yogurt. It's so delicious! and healthy. I should be paid to advertise yogurt.
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